Trip ke Zoo Melaka

Pada 30 November yg lepas kami sekeluarga telah pergi ke Zoo Melaka. Sebenarnya mmg dah lama plan nak bawak Adam pegi zoo since that dia suka tgk binatang. Tangguh punya tangguh.. akhirnya tercapai juga hasrat nak bawak dia. Beberapa hari seblum pegi tu dah tanya2 member yg pernah pegi Zoo Melaka. Ade yg kata ok.. ade yg kata x berapa. Sy pn ade jenguk2 website zoo melaka n zoo negara. Memandangkan keluasan Zoo Negara tu agak besar.. we thought of start with a smaller zoo which is Zoo Melaka

Tiba di zoo around 11 a.m. .. kira dah lmbat sbnarnya. Planning nak sampai zoo awal pagi.. so that bleh abis by tengahari.. maklumlah masa tu musim hujan.. almost hari2 hujan.. especially in the evening. Tp biasa la bila dah ade budak2 ni.. plan kluar kol 8.. last2 dekat kol 9.30 gak baru gerak dr Salak Tinggi. Kitorg singgah breakfast jap kat R&R Seremban. Skali Adam ternampak lak machine yg budak2 suka naik yg masuk duit tu. Dia nak naik sgt n pastu x nak turun plak. dlm 20 min gak la tunggu dia puas main.. last2 ktorg angkut jer dia. huhuhu

Bayaran masuk zoo tu RM7 utk org dewasa. Adam still free. Kitorg x de la excited sgt nak tgk binatang2 tu.. tp lebih excited nk tgk Adam's reaction. Mula2 tu boring gak.. sbb kebanyakan binatang were resting masa tu. Tak banyak binatang yg bergerak2. N furthermore binatang2 tu quite far dr pagar... mcm nampak x nampak jer. Adam pun jd ala2 boring n mengantuk. Dah la tenghari time dia tido. Kitorg punya la usaha nak make him stay awake. Kejap2 dukung dia.. kejap2 bg dia duduk dlm stroller. Bila dok dlm stoller jer dia nak tertido.. kesian gak kat dia.. heheheh.. but Alhamdulillah Adam x meragam.Kitorg amik masa 2 jam lebih gak nak jalan satu zoo tu. Penat giler rasa.. kira berbaloi gak la bayar RM7 tu.

Algae World 08 & Baby on the Way

Bulan lepas saya telah mengikuti satu international conference (Algae World 2008) in Singapore. Pertama kali saya diberi peluang menyertai international conference di luar Malaysia. Kalo ikutkan sejarah company ni, junior exec (below 3 yrs) mmg de peluang nak pegi conference kat oversea. Tp alhamdulillah rezeki saya. tambahan lak conference tu bersifat teknikal dan merupakan topik research projek sy. Byk yg sy pelajari ketika di sana. Balik dr conference berserabut otak berfikir camne nak buat report. Ilmu n info yg sy dpt dr conference tu pun tidak tersusun dgn baik dlm otak ni. Ni dah masuk 3 minggu, tp report x siap lg... huhuhu... harap2 dapat siapkan hr ni. hehehhe.. tp 2 minggu lepas pun bende yg sama sy katakan.. hehehe..

Saat nak meninggalkan Adam n Papa kat KLIA rasa nak menangis.. tapi kalo Adam nampak mama dia nangis, sure dia nangis skali.. huhuhu

Masa pergi Singapore tu.. first time la tinggalkan Adam selama 2 mlm. Kesian dia. Hubby kata Adam dok panggil2 'mama'.. nak tido pggil.. bgn tido pggil.. yer la.. sejak lahir x pernah lg sy tinggalkan dia kecuali waktu kerja. kalo kene outstation jauh pun.. sy berusaha balik ke rumah hr yg sama. penat mmg la penat. tp x sampai hati la nak tinggalkan dia. Tmbahan lak Adam menyusu badan. Sejak sy tahu sy nak kene pergi Singapore.. sy dah mula train Adam minum susu botol. Sblum ni kat rumah babysitter dia ok jer minum susu dlm botol. Cuma bila dok dgn sy jer dia ngada2. Bermula raya aidilfitri yg lepas.. start reduce bg susu bdn. Alhamdulillah by the time sy pegi Singapore hr tu dia dah mula minum susu di botol sepenuhnya. Cuma kdg2 tu dia ngada2 nak juga susu bdn. Nak lepas gian la tu.. heheheh..

Beberapa pemandangan di Singapore yang sempat diambil... tak sempat nak jalan ke mana-mana pun.

Ade kemungkinan bulan januari ni kene ke jepun pulak utk projek bioethanol. Tp x confirm lg sbb dengar2 citer projek tu ditangguhkan. Sy sbenarnya teringin juga nak ke sana. Tujuannya nak belajar jer. Dgn org2 Jepun ni.. kdg2 diorg x reveal sumer information walaupun kita dah sign agreement. Sbb tu sy rasa penting utk pergi sana n lihat sendiri technology diorg. Tp pd masa yg sama sy berat hati juga kalo terpaksa pergi. Kalo kene pergi mungkin dekat seminggu juga. Camne la nak kene tinggalkan Adam lg. Tmbahan pulak masa tu kndungan dah masuk 6 bulan. Skang ni pun sy rasa dah x larat.. mcm dah ngandung 8 bulan. Camne la bila perut makin besar nanti. Lain betul la mngandung yg 2nd one ni. Asyik sakit2 jer. Risau jugak.

Hari sabtu lepas pergi monthly check-up. Doctor kata mungkin baby girl.. tp x confirm lg.. sbb position baby masa scan tu agak menyukarkan keadaan melihat jantina baby. Kalo betul la girl.. best nyer. Mmg berharap dpt baby girl. Org kata anak pompuan ni senang skit nak jaga masa kecik. Tp bila dah besar nanti.. susah nak jaga. Anyway bila dia besar nanti ade la anak pompuan nk tolong2 buat kerja rumah. Anak laki pulak susah jaga masa kecik.. dah besar nanti senang. Tp kalo rezeki dpt boy jugak.. sy terima. Janji sihat.. sempurna fizikal dan akalnya.. alhamdulillah.

Keroncong Hujan

"Mega mendung di angkasa
Hembusan bayu dingin terasa
Gerimis berderai di merata
Bagai mutiara
Rahmat dibawa bersama
Limpahannya meresap dijiwa
Adakala bahgia terasa
Meskipun duka nestapa
Tika hujan turun
Sayup mendayu lagu keroncong
Merdu irama dialun bersenandung
Hujan membasahi bumi
Melahirkan keluhuran budi
Mengeratkan perpaduan suci
Kasih sayang abadi"


Kenapa saya post lirik lagu ni.. saya pun kurang pasti. Tapi hari ini lagu Keroncong Hujan nyanyian Adibah Noor dalam filem Mukhsin asyik bermain-main dalam fikiran saya. Padahal saya tidak mendengar radio pun ketika ini (kecuali semasa memandung dalam perjalanan ke pejabat pagi tadi). Bukan bertujuan nak mempromosi filem Mukhsin walaupun saya sendiri memang menyukai filem tersebut. Tapi filem itu telah lama ditayangkan. Yasmin Ahmad pun dah nak keluar dengan Mualaf (dengar cerita kontroversi juga filem ni). Kesimpulannya, saya tiada tujuan specific menge'post' lirik lagu ini. Mungkin sekadar berkongsi lagu2 keroncong yang saya minati. Memang best la lagu2 keroncong ni. Ada lagi satu lagu keroncong yang saya suka. Tapi belum dapat cari liriknya.

Sindarela

"Dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi
ketawa kerananya.. senyum kerananya..menangis semahunya.. sakit
bermula dengan persahabatan
segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang
semata-mata untuk rasa dihargai
ada yang percaya cintanya untuk selamanya
for some of us finally they realize that life is not a fairy tale
they need to start over
demi sebuah impian tak salah untuk kita korban
bilamana hati kita rapuh menghadapi realiti
menangis..menangis semahunya
tapi jangan biarkan hati kita terus rebah
sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang
kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian
in life we have to learn to let go and keep on moving
the more you wait the more time you waste
bermula dengan hati,angan dan mimpi
sebesar manapun kedudukan kita
segagah prinsip mampu goyah because of love
cause we are human being
mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah
kita harus kuatkan hati..percaya naluri
just admit it.lafazkan cinta..ku mahukan dia"

This is taken from telenovela "Sindarela" aired on TV3, at the end of the last episode. I really like it. I like the telenovela very much too, although my husband said the story was unlogic. But who cares.. there a lot of stories that are far beyond logic too.. and we still watch them.

Why am I feeling down?

It has been more than 2 weeks I've been feeling so down and not quite myself. I feel sick, demotivated, unenergetic and damn so lazy. In fact it started since the accident I had almost a month ago. I am not fit physically and mentally. It started with physical pain and it affected my emotional. When my body recovered (except for the knee.. still have the pain till today.. hhmm.. am I turning into OKU (org kurang upaya)??.. nauzubillah).. my emotional still have not. I did 'mandi pulih semangat'. But it got better just a little while before it got worse. I dont think its because of the accident. My hypothesis is.. I may be pregnant and it got worse because of fasting.. its Ramadhan. But its not fair to blame on fasting. Not fair to blame on the pregnancy either. Fasting is supposed to 'clean up' your mind and soul. And pregnancy is a gift from Allah. But the effect of 'pembawakan budak' plus the puasa is so damn tak best langsung. I really hope I'll get better once the fasting month ended. And I really hope all the unstable hormones and whatever is happening inside my body rite now will stabilize after week-16. hhhmm.. if my calculation is correct.. i am in week 8.. aaaarrggghhh... 8 weeks to go. But that is just less than a half of pregnancy duration. Another different challenge(s) will come after week 16.

But the question is.. am I really pregnant? I have not checked. I just assume based on my period.. and all the morning sickness that I am having. I strongly believe (at least 90%) that it is true.. that I am pregnant. Why didnt I go for a pregnancy test? hhmm.. one of the reason is I dont want my husband get too excited. He already excited when I told him that my period was a week late. He already told my son that he's going to get a little brother/sister when he first time saw me vomitted in the morning. Most of all I dont want him telling everybody that I am pregnant again. I can guess what peoples reactions will be. My son is only 16 months... not even 2 years old. I'm afraid that he is too young to get a little brother/sister. I am also afraid to receive negative comments about me being pregnant ("cepat nyer", "kesian adam.. kecik lg dah dpt adik", "tak sampai 2 tahun dah ngandung lg?", bla..bla..bla). Anyway.. we did not plan for this. Am I ready to get pregnant? Honestly.. no. But I am already pregnant. I have to face it.. carry it .. anyway..

But another question is.. it is really true that this pregnancy makes me feel so down? It does makes me sick and unenergetic.. thats physical. But how about this lazy things and demotivated? Why am I feeling so damn lazy to go to work every morning? I feel demotivated too. I have to admit that sometimes the abundance of work stressed me out. Too many work to be done. I cant concentrate on any. I hate it.. because I am doing research. Focus is essential in this type of work. Sometimes I feel like resigning. Not because the pay or the benefits are not good. But more or less is because I am too tired. I feel overloaded. Why cant I discuss this problem with my boss? Because I dont think he/they will understand. Anyway.. they are the one who gave me all these works. Can I refuse to do the job given when they give to me? hhmm.... I dont know if I can.

Whatever it is.. I am tired. I want to go home and sleep... or watch some vcd/dvd to relax.

R&D Day and MC

Last night I was informed by my boss (thru sms) that I was nominated to be co-MC for the R&D Day. I was not surprised, but more disappointed. Earlier, about 2 days ago, I was told by the head of my sub-committee of R&D Day, that I was nominated as back-up MC. I didn’t agree. But what can I say? I was nominated by my Director. I can’t refuse to take the task, or else I won’t get any bonus this coming July. Furthermore we just had our appraisal last 2 weeks. Arrrgghh..

I wonder why Mr Director nominated me. I have no experience being MC. I am still new with the company. 2 years is still considered junior executive. I proved nothing to him that I can be an MC. I don’t know if can deliver the task. In fact I have not yet deliver the article he asked me to write. How can he nominated me to handle for such big event, where Tun Musa Hitam, Dato Seri Zubir and Dato Azhar will be the guests of honour. There are many others who capable of being MC, those with fluent English, not me. Aarrrrgghh..

I’m not just worried about delivering the task. Preparation is another thing. Who will prepare the script? I am taking a 1 week leave the whole next week. My baby sitter is taking a leave from Monday to Wednesday, and we are going back to my hubby’s kampong on Tuesday’s night till Sunday. We have bought flight ticket for that, which we had planned much earlier. Its RM400 tau!!! The worst thing is there will be a full rehearsal on Friday, where we will be still in kampong. We can’t just cancel the ticket. If we want to change the date, we have to pay few hundreds more. And that is why my hubby was so upset last nite. I am extremely upset too. I don’t know what to do. I am trapped!!!

I once was advised by my boss. He said “if the company calls u to come to work, even during the weekend or during your holiday, you must come back”. At that time we were asked to come on Sunday to work because some VIP wanted to visit our labs. But I didn’t show up because we were in kampong. What a coincident. Everytime balik kampong also. So this time, I have no reason to refuse.

The only solution I can think about right now is come back earlier. We will still go back to Kelantan on Tuesday night, but my son and I will come back to Sepang on Friday morning, so that I can still attend the rehearsal, and know what to do on Monday the R&D Day. I hope its worth for what I am sacrificing.

Article and Innovation Workshop

When I was asked by my SVP I to write an article about a workshop I attended, to be published in our company bulletin, I was surprised. I was wondering if he actually wanted to send the instruction (thru sms) to somebody else, instead of me. He was one of the observers in the workshop. I guess maybe he instructed me because among the participants, I was the most junior executive he knows. I kinda worried initially. I don’t know if I could write a good article. My English is terrible, very straight forward, with limited vocabulary. Blogging wouldn’t be that difficult as I can just mix up the Malay-English anywhere anytime I feel like doing so. But writing an article is different, especially for a company bulletined. I just hope that I’ll manage to write something that meets my boss’s expectation. Bak kata one of Akademi Fantasia’s participants, Nadia – “Redah ajerr”. By hook or by crook, I must write something. It is an order. It has been a week since the 2-days workshop ended. But I haven’t started to write anything yet. How????

Tazkirah Sarapan Pagi

Pagi ini saya telah mendapat ilmu/pengetahuan baru dari sesi tazkirah waktu sarapan pagi. Di pejabat saya ada seorang rakan yang gemar bercerita dan berkongsi ilmu2 agama termasuk lah cerita2 sejarah. Banyak ilmu yang berguna saya pelajari dari cerita2 yang disampaikan. Waktu sarapan pagi adalah waktu di mana kami berkumpul dan makan bersama sambil berbual2, samada berbual kosong mahupun sesuatu yang berilmiah. Sebenarnya selalu juga rakan saya ini berkongsi ilmu. Tapi sebelum2 ini saya tak pernah tulis ape yg saya pelajari. Jadi bagi mengelakkan saya lupa, saya rasa saya patut tulis di blog ni. Dpt juga berkongsi ilmu dgn pembaca.

Cerita yang disampaikan pagi td mengenai kisah Nabi Musa a.s. Menurut rakan saya ini pada zaman Nabi Musa a.s, iman bersifat ‘ainul iman’ atau iman yang timbul dari apa yang dilihat. Pada zaman itu Allah telah menunjukkan Ke-Esa-anNya secara zahir selama 40 thn kepada umat Nabi Musa a.s. Antaranya Laut Merah terbelah, makanan turun dari langit, air keluar dari batu tergantung dan pakaian yang membesar bersama pemakainya. Namun begitu iman yang bersifat begini tidak kuat. Ketika Nabi Musa a.s. pergi mengadap Allah selama 40 hari, umatnya telah menyembah berhala (patung sapi emas).

Berbeza dengan zaman Rasulullah s.a.w, di mana iman bersifat yakin dengan sepenuh hati walaupun sesuatu yang tidak dapat dilihat, mahupun sesuatu yang di akal manusia itu tidak logic. Contohnya pada malam Israk Mikraj, Rasulullah telah menaiki buraj (sejenis binatang) dari Masjid Haram ke Masjid Aqsa dan kemudiannya naik ke langit. Semuanya berlaku dalam satu malam. Jika difikirkan oleh akal fikiran manusia yang sgt terbatas ini, tentu sahaja ianya tidak logic. Tapi sebagai orang Islam kita wajib percaya dan yakin, itu lah Iman.

Dari cerita yg disampaikan juga, baru saya tahu bahawa umat Nabi Musa a.s itu terbahagi kepada 12 puak. Ketika Laut Merah terbelah, Allah telah membuat 12 belahan laut untuk 12 puak, yang mana setiap puak melalui satu belahan (bukan seperti yang digambarkan, laut terbelah dua). Pada ketika Firaun sampai di tepi laut merah yang sedang terbelah itu, Firaun sedar bahawa laut akan bertaut kembali dan dia akan lemas sekiranya dia turut mengejar Nabi Musa a.s yang sedang melintas laut yg terbelah itu. Allah telah mengarahkan Jibrail menunggang seekor kuda betina yang kemudianya berlari di depan Firaun. Ia telah menyebabkan kuda jantan yang ditunggang oleh Jibrail mengejar kuda betina tersebut, lalu masuk ke dalam laut yang terbelah. Pengikut2 Firaun juga turut masuk ke dalam laut yg terbelah itu apabila melihat raja mereka masuk. Seperti yang diketahui umum akhirnya Firaun dan pengikut2nya mati apabila laut yang terbelah pada mulanya, kembali bercantum.

Sebenarnya banyak lagi yang diceritakan oleh rakan saya ini. Tapi tidak dapat saya karang semula kerana ada yang saya lupa. Barangkali lain kali saya patut membawa buku nota kecil dan mencatatnya ketika dia bercerita. Apa2 pun saya sgt bersyukur dgn adanya orang seperti rakan saya ini. Moga2 bertambah pahala dan ilmunya berkat ilmu yang disampaikan kepada saya dan rakan2 yg lain.

After a long time..

Waaahhh.. dah berbulan lamanya saya tidak menjenguk blog ini. Memang betul kata orang.. menulis blog ni ade 2 saje kemungkinan.. 1. menjadi addicted dan blog terus hidup... atau 2. hanya hangat2 tahi ayam dan terus berkubur.. well my blog certainly not the 2nd one.. otherwise I wont be writing today rite? But not no 1 as well... coz it has been abandoned for almost 1/2 a year.. an impresive record.. huhuhuhu.. not just my blog.. same goes to my fotopages. my last entry on fotopages was in December 2007

Hhhmm.. why didnt I update my blog, neither my fotopages? There is only one reason for it. I was and still am extremely busy with my work. Dulu2 masa tak de kesedaran sivik.. mende2 blog dgn fotopages ni buat time keje.. (ada ker patut) Masa tu nak kata tak banyak keje.. tak jugak. tp.. malas dan terlalu take it easy on the work. Tp.. pastu insaf skit aaaa. dah tak buat bende2 tu time keje. nak buat masa kat rumah lagi la tak boleh nyer.. dengan kerenah anakanda tercinta yang sedang membesar dan memerlukan perhatian sepanjang masa... agak sukar nak mem'blogging' dan mem'fotopaging' di rumah.

But why today I started blogging again? No specific reason la. But just now I read one of my friends' blog, Zalwanie (http://www.dakwanie.com/) and Afdlin's blog. Suddenly I felt like writing. huhuhuhu... is it because the power of these peoples word? Ntah ler.. mungkin juga. Or maybe saya dengki dengan mereka2 ni yang consistently update their blogs. But I wonder where they got all the time to blogging eh? And they got all those ideas to write?

I think in order to have a good blog one should have idea of what to be written. Yer la kan.. kalo dah dok membebel jer.. (like what I'm doing rite now) blog tu takkan memberi apa2 faedah kepada pembacanya. Orang pun tak berminat nak mengikuti. Nowdays anyone can blogging. Even ex-MB Selangor pun nak tulis blog. For what reason I dont know. Mungkin untuk berkongsi pendapat atau perasaan yang tak terluah kot. hhhhmm.. mungkin sbb tu kot saya membuka blog ni.. (tgh berfikir sejenak).. apa2 pun terpulang lah pada penulis blog dan pembaca blog menilai ..