The update, the CEP, the new friends, The Last Lecture and I

December 2010 was the most unproductive period at work. Apart from the health problem my family and I had, I seemed lost at work. Less motivation, less driving force, although I had my list of task to be completed. Some are less priority, some are too difficult to be done, some stuck half way through, some I simply refuse to do (boleh tak camtu? :)). In short, i think I just lost passion towards my work.

I thought when the new year 2011 came, it will change. Naahhh.. It didn't. So, there goes my January down the drain with very little progress at work. Hmm.. I wonder what did I do in the office. I must be doing NOTHING because I can't remember anything. That's bad!!

February came and I had to attend a 2 weeks leadership course. I was reluctant initially. Why? 1. I heard from participant of previous session saying that the course was boring. 2. I may not be able to go home everyday as the course is packed until late night. 3. I feel old to attend such course...haha. Realizing that everybody will be busy doing preparation for our R&D Day and I don't want to be part of that 'busyness', I decided to attend the course. But I set in my mind to be open, not to have high expectation, to learn and to have fun!!

Well.. I did have fun and learn a lot of things during that course. Got the chance to meet and know and work together with wonderful people from various division of SD. The course content was excellent, and so did the execution of the activities, the facilitators, the speakers. I had the most interesting and fun learning time. The course really motivates me to become a better person... a better leader actually.

I came back from the course telling myself that I want to be different and I want to make a different. It has been 1 week since I came back from the course. I think I am slightly different. Definitely not totally, but at least the way I look at things. One thing for sure is that I miss my new friends, especially my teammates and the time we spent together, which I never thought I will be. Ridzuan - the young enthusiastic Singaporean, Nadia - the pretty young lady with excellent English and a die-hard gym fan, Jag - the tallest & biggest & coolest Singh with favorite tagline 'boleh la boss', and Faiz - the cool and calm gentleman with high potential to become a great leader. They are my teammates.

I foresee that for me to become a better person (I prefer to use 'person' rather than 'leader'), it's not going to be easy. There will be challenges that I have to face, especially at work where the culture is already developed. People are skeptical when they see new change or the people who try to make the change. The biggest challenge I think will be coming from myself. I got to tell myself that although it's not going to be easy, it's not very difficult as well as long as I want to become a better person - POSITIVE and PROACTIVE!!

Today I started to read a book entitle 'The last lecture' by Randy Pausch, which I received at the end of the leadership course because I was voted by the participants as the top 5 leaders. :) Sangat terharu and sangat memberi semangat and peransang. But just after reading the first page, I couldn't help myself crying until I had to stop reading at page 5. Why? The fact that the author wrote the book because he knew that he was dying of cancer and he wanted to leave something as legacy, especially for his family. I was really touched knowing that he was preparing his family to move on with their life without him. He was still considered young, 40++ with 2 sons of age 5 and 2, and a girl of age 1. Can't imagine how his wife went through the days. I can't even imagine my life without my husband and my kids.

Anyway, I must continue to read the book someday. I will try not to get very 'into' the book. I want to learn something from the author and I believe he did leave a legacy in 'The last lecture'.

Racist + Politics = Boring

Early this week Tun Mahathir in his blog made a post titled "To be or not to be a racist" (http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2010/08/to-be-or-not-to-be-a-racist.html). I have to admit that he did made some points, which I do agree on some of them when I look from his point of view. As usual many bloggers made comments.. 165 comments to be specific. Everybody have their own opions and perceptions, some agree and some disagree. After reading several latest comments, it appears to me that almost everybody if not all feel that they are right. There are people who put the blame on the others, there are people who defend the side who being blamed. Semua pun 'perasan' yang diri sendiri betul. Very few who admit their mistake, apatah lagi highlight kelemahan diri sendiri. And there are people yang 'kaki ampu'.

You talk about racist, automatically it relates with politics. You talk about politics, it always about BN vs Pembangkang, it always about UMNO, PAS, PKR, DAP, MCA, MIC, etc. Haiyyoooo... very boring. Reading postings and comments on racist and political issues made me feel .... ntah lah! Boring ade, geram ade, marah ade, benci ade, malas nak layan ade, sedih ade, terkilan ade, menyampah ade, and all sort of feelings that I don't like.

Do we need to be racist? Perlu ker isu kaum dipolitikkan? Perlu ker parti politik mengikut kaum? Perlu ker kaum dikaitkan dengan politik? By the way, boleh tak kalau tidak ade langsung parti politik? Hmm.... saya mengeluh mengenangkan dan memikirkan bende ini. Boleh tak saya buat tidak tahu saje.. like I always did. Tapi sampai bila? Apa yang saya boleh lakukan? Jika berterusan ade 2 atau lebih .. saya perlu memilih. Pihak mana yang saya perlu pilih? How to choose? hhhmmm.... (mengeluh lagi)



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Ulasan - Melayu Ke Mana?

I've been following our Mantan Perdana Menteri, Tun Dr Mahathir's blog (http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/) for quite sometime. Initially I just want to improve my English, not only from his posts but from the comments made by his followers. But since early this year I began to really follow his blog because I find that his view in many things are quite different than others, which I respect. Although I don't agree with all his writing/opinion, often he gave a different perspective.

Recently he wrote about bangsa Melayu in two posts (http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2010/06/melayu-kemana.html) and(http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2010/06/melayu-kemana-2.html). As usual many people made comments, some are very fruitful while some are opposite. And here is my comment to his post:

By Irma Hakimi on June 17, 2010 1:15 PM

Assalamualaikum.. Yang dihormati Tun dan pengikut Che Det,
Pada saya memang benar Melayu harus bersatu tanpa perlu mengira fahaman politik. Tetapi apa yang lebih penting umat Islam sendiri yang sangat harus bersatu, tanpa mengira bangsa, keturunan, mahupun fahaman politik. Rakyat Malaysia juga perlu bersatu tanpa mengira kesemua yang dinyatakan di atas.

Sehingga hari ini saya tidak faham mengapa perlu adanya parti2 politik yang berbeza2 - UMNO, PKR, PAS, MIC, MCA, DAP, etc. Pada saya kesemua parti politik mempunyai visi yang sama pada dasarnya iaitu mahukan yang terbaik untuk rakyat Malaysia, kaum masing2, agama masing2, kemajuan dan pembangunan negara (sosio dan ekonomi), dan segala yang baik2 belaka. Tetapi hanya kerana berbeza pendapat kita berpecah-belah, bukan sahaja Melayu malah kaum2 lain juga berpecah-belah. Mengapa kesemua parti tidak politik menumpukan dan melihat kesamaan yang wujud antara mereka - iaitu mahukan yang terbaik untuk rakyat. Tetapi parti2 politik lebih menumpukan kepada perbezaan antara satu sama lain, membeza-bezakan antara satu sama lain malah memburuk-burukkan satu sama lain. Saya sangat2 tidak faham.

Saya dari generasi yang lahir dlm tahun akhir 70an, tidak merasai kepayahan mencapai kemerdekaan seperti generasi terdahulu, dan membesar dalam keadaan negara yang aman dan membangun. Tetapi semakin saya meningkat usia semakin saya tidak faham dengan politik dalam negara dan keadaan rakyat yang semakin berpecah belah. Saya langsung tidak minat politik, tidak mengikuti, dan tidak menyebelahi mana2 parti politik. Saya rasa ramai lagi orang dari generasi saya dan generasi selepas saya yang sama seperti sama.

Berbalik kepada isu tadi, berbeza pendapat tidak bermaksud kita tidak boleh duduk di bawah bumbung yg sama, tidak boleh berada dalam kapal yang sama, tidak boleh bekerja secara professional bersama2. Sedangkan dalam satu pejabat ada masanya kita tidak bersetuju dengan sesuatu/seseorang, tapi kita tidak terus berhenti kerja. Kita masih juga bekerja menjalankan tanggungjawab masing2 untuk mencapai matlamat masing2. Dalam sesebuah perkahwinan juga ada masanya suami isteri berbeza pendapat, tapi tidak pula terus bercerai bila ianya terjadi. Seperti lelaki dan perempuan yang dijadikan Allah berbeza tetapi saling melengkapi. Begitu juga pelbagai kaum di dunia. Pasti ada hikmah mengapa Allah jadikan pelbagai kaum itu berbeza.

Pada saya kuncinya ialah TOLERANSI (bertolak ansur). Perpaduan juga memerlukan toleransi dalam hal tertentu. Hal apa? Kembalilah kepada agama, rujuk kepada ajaran/kepercayaan masing2. Saya percaya tidak ada satu agama pun dalam dunia yang membenarkan perkara2 tidak baik dilakukan (mencuri, membunuh, berzina, etc).

Saya sedar memang mudah bercakap tapi melaksanakannya tidak semudah berkata2. Sedangkan dulu rakyat boleh bersatu menentang penjajah, mengapa sekarang rakyat tidak boleh bersatu untuk kemajuan dan kebaikan semua? Mengapa rakyat perlu memilih parti politik untuk mendapatkan kemajuan? Kalau kita fikir susah untuk bersatu, maka susahlah ia. Pokok pangkalnya perlu ada kemahuan. Jika mahu, Insya-Allah boleh.

Apa yang ingin saya tekankan di sini:1) Kita SEMUA harus bersatu tanpa mengira kaum, bangsa, keturunan, agama, fahaman politik demi kebaikan semua. 2) Jangan hanya melihat perbezaan, tapi lihatlah persamaan yang kita ada antara kita.3) Toleransi dan kerjasama perlu untuk mencapai sesuatu.

Maaf sekiranya buah fikiran ini agak menyimpang dari tajuk yang Tun bincangkan di atas. Wallahu 'alam